Do you ever feel like your life is just moving way too fast for you? Sometimes it feels like I’m on a train and the scenery (my life) is speeding by outside the window. Lately I feel like I could even be on the wrong train going in the wrong direction. That did happen to me in Europe one time. I had to jump off and find the right train. It wasn’t easy in a foreign land with a foreign language I did not speak, but I eventually found it. That is exactly how I’m feeling lately. I need to jump off and find the right train.

I also want this train to be moving a lot slower so I can enjoy the scenery (my life). I’m not sure how long it will take to find it. I am taking at least this month off to be still and listen to my creative spirit inside, who knows all. I have been pushing through so many responsibilities to my business and other people that I feel so worn out.

Sometimes I think we are the ones making unreasonable demands on ourselves. We expect to be able to function without giving ourselves what we need to do so, but we all require creative solitude, the healing of time alone. Without this period of recharging, we become depleted. Over time it becomes worse than out of sorts.

It is not all that easy to check out of our lives as we know them. There are many details to handle before you take the leap. There are many barriers also: People that tell you that it’s not a good idea… will my business be okay without me? Am I letting my employees and customers down? What about my husband and children? If we don’t take care of ourselves, nobody else will. And when we do… EVERYBODY & EVERYTHING around us benefits, not just us. It becomes clear what we truly want, and we now have the energy and the creative free spirit to go after it.

This is what I’m looking to get out of this month off. By stepping out of my life activities I will be able to see clearly where I should step back in and where I shouldn’t.

There is a part of me that is so strongly being called to more. I’m still not exactly sure what that is. I’m confident through this month of exploration something will be revealed to me… even if it’s just the next micro-movement in that direction. I am fully open to where this free spirit of mine wants to take me next. It hasn’t ever taken me where I didn’t want to be.

Spirits are made to be free. We are all free spirits. Sometimes we may lose ours for awhile, but we must choose to practice freedom. The world is craving more creative spirits!

Martha Graham has said it best…

“There is a vitality, a life-force, and energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action. And because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open… whether you choose to take an art class, keep a journal, record your dreams, dance your story or live each day from your own creative source. Above all else, keep the channel open!”

I AM TRYING TO KEEP THE CHANNEL OPEN!!!

“Look and you will find it…what is unsought will go undetected.” – Sophocles

I will be back in June!

Warm Hugs to you all,

Terry

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